The sun rises in his eyes
My world the better for his dawning
Peace of faith and understanding
Shine forth
Blessings and comfort he brings to me
My world formed anew
Washing away my fear
A trust unknown grows within me.

Voices condemn my stupidity
Deny his graciousness
Block out his light
“It will burn you
Bury you in the ashes of all you could be
All you could be going your own way
Fight for control
Struggle against his imprisonment
Dependence is addiction
Cry out for freedom”.

The voices whisper fear
Worry, anxiety, confusion
Pain and a troubled mind
A heart reminded of past sorrows
Abandonment, guilt, horror.

I am overwhelmed
Shrinking
Growing smaller
Crouching in the darkness
Arms wrapped around my head
I am safe here
Voices whisper
“Stay we will shield you
Feel the solid floor
The walls surrounding you
Stay in the control”.

High above a pin point of light
A star white hot
Brilliant against the dark
My eyes hurt to see it
Voices shrieking
I will burn
I scream in anger and betrayal
It is reaching for me
Light beyond purity
I stare
I long for its touch
I want the light
The cleansing power.

Claws scratch at me
Tearing my skin
Pulling me back
Into the comfort of the darkness
I sing out
My spirit crying for help
Tears of bitterness
Tears of joy
Tears of confusion
Tears of hope.

Hands take me
Cradle me
Support me
I can rest
I am looking into the universe
All creation in his eyes
Warmth
Wholeness.

Frightened of trusting
Can I believe I am sought?
Can this purity want me?
To hold
To guide
To help
I do not understand
Into this incomprehension I surrender my control
My strength in independence no longer needed
I am his
Loved
Protected
Valued
Upheld
Launched into who I was created to be
As I watch the sun rising in his eyes for all eternity.